I just sent an email to someone detailing a few things about our inner world and I thought it might be nice to post it here too, if anyone cares :)

I’ll just copy and paste to save time :p

Hello :)

I’m so sorry this took so long - the others were waiting for me to come out and answer it since I know the mot about our innerworld :)
Time is, as far as I know, concurrent with out here - but the weather is very different (always nice and sunny, raining whilst we’re in bed and we barely ever get caught out).
The others never venture outside of the main town and Miku does not go further into the palace other than what she knows. Only I explore and, if I find somewhere safe, I sometimes take the others to it. The reason only I and Peter explore the inner world fully is because it is a very dangerous place, with places trapped in the past, triggering spots and fragments and introjects I don’t really talk to the others about. To have anyone but me go exploring would be extremely dangerous and could impact the system in a negative light (the last time we left our comfort zones Henry ended up re-experiencing a trauma, coupled with a nightmare and an introject alongside a persecutor. The experience was so horrific that it re-traumatised him and he split into a fully paralysed alter named Adrianna who would be dragged away every night by fragments who would hurt her. We’re still dealing with the escaped fragments to this day and that incident happened over a year ago. So, to be on the safe side, only I wander outside of what we know (and only then with Peter - my loyal husky - by my side).
The outside and inside world are similar, yet different. Like I said earlier, the weather is different out here as it is inside. The air is much cleaner and less polluted and it’s brighter too (you always feel safer inside the main town than you would in a similar town out here). Also, since a few fictives from a fantasy story came into the system (Molly and Alex, and their friends) elemental magic has become part of our daily life (even if only Molly, Alex and the other guardians can wield it) and the inner world is advancing in technology much faster than the real world. Also, the palace does not have doors, rather you travel place to place via mirrors and to close a door permanently, you smash a mirror. Finally, there are three layers of ‘heaven’ or ‘the cloud’ as some of us call it where the angels are, the bay where we live, and ‘hell’ or ‘the pit’ where the defeated introjects are. 
Sorry we took so long to reply :/
Hollie Lewis of the DID System of Jeff

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Anonymous asked: From what I understand D.I.D. is when there are multiple people (alters) sharing one body, but to me I don't feel like an alter, I feel more like the body itself being inhibited by multiple personalities and I retain memories and skills from the separate people, almost as if I'm the shell that contains these alters, is this D.I.D or something completely different?

It doesn’t sound like the type of dissociation we experience, in fact it sounds like you’re as far away from dissociated from your body as you can get. It could be that you’re a memory holder? Or, a strange sort of gate keeper that’s always cocon - hence the retaining skills and memories part. Or, it could be something completely different. But I do know that the body should be treated as something very different to a person as a body is a vessel and is, in fact, an inanimate object without a brain controlling it, and it’s impossible to be an object XD

Maybe go see a dissociation specialist to get a diagnosis and see whether it’s something in the DDNOS spectrum, or another dissociative disorder, or if it is, in fact, DID.

Or, it could be that you have something we like to call ‘comfort personalities’ and not an actual dissociative disorder (which is a good thing, I insure you). Comfort personalities are something we all have in our lives - different fronts we put on in different situations where we behave like we’re a completely different person. For example, I have ‘adventurer Hollie’ and ‘traumatised Hollie’. When I’m adventurer Hollie I am stronger and keep a cooler head when presented with problems, but traumatized Hollie breaks down and cries if a butterfly lands on her shoulder and she’s not expecting it. But they’re both me, Hollie, but I’m in a different state of mind and it ‘almost’ feels like someone is controlling me because I act so out of my usual character (which is basically your average preteen). Some people even name they’re comfort personalities and talk to them, I know I do, and they can even answer back- it’s the whole ‘having a conversation with yourself cliche’ where you feel like you’re talking with someone else and they have independent thought when really, they don’t (personally, I think that’s what a Tumblr tulpa is but that’s a whole other kettle of fish I’m not going to get into right now).

Anyway, I know nothing about you or your past but, going from the information provided in this ask (and a little help from Natt and Rachel), those would be my best guesses to what you’re experiencing and what you should do next.

If any followers want to weigh in, please feel free to do so (I’m not an expert, just an alter in a system so I don’t know everything).

I hope I helped, message me back if you want more help :)

Hollie 

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Anonymous asked: Hey! I was wondering if you guys could explain some if the terminology that you use on this page?

Of course we can, what do you want us to explain?

Baz

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Anonymous asked: One of our alters named Eve is a fictive, based off of a serial killer and worries us, what should we do? We just met her recently - C

Hey there, C

First off I would suggest getting to know her, and seeing just how like her fictional counterpart she is. I’m based off a fictive too, but there are several differences between me and him (depression and anorexia being two I can think of off the top of my head). It might be that she’s not actually going to be a problem. But if she is, the only thing I could suggest is possibly thinking about trying to get her to combine with another alter - one who’s strong enough to cope with it - or think about containment facilities for her in your inner world. We have an actual prison like thing where we keep dangerous fragments and alters so that could be a good last resort if things turn out to be a problem.

Keep in touch to let me know how it’s going, please.

Baz

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Anonymous asked: Scarlet, It's M again. Sorry to post anon but I don't have a tumblr account so have no choice (I'm not all that great with tech!). I just want to thank you so very much for your reply. It has GENUINELY helped a heck of a lot and I really do feel less alone knowing that I'm not on my own with this. None of us are at all keen on integration so that won't be happening soon but I hope to God that if it ever gets to that point that we can integrate as ME. Thanks again. I will post here often :) M xxx

i’m glad I could help :D

Anytime you wanna talk/need us, our ask is always open :)

Scarlet xxxxx

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Anonymous asked: Hello :) I'm really stressing right now because I've recently realised that I could be an alter and that Mom may not have biologically give birth to ME. It feels so right but so wrong because I thought I was doing well in therapy and stuff and believed I was the ''original'' but now? I think I know who the ''original'' may be instead but she calls herself the 'FFF' and is 14. She hasn't been around since I was around 14, though, and our body is 24 years old now. Could I be right? *Afraid* M x

Heya, First off, calm down, dear, breathe. Can you do that for me? *big hugs*

I went through the EXACT same experience that you’re going through right now - I thought I was the original for years until I found out I wasn’t and the original was actually a two year old kid I had taken over from and grown up in the place of.

Thing is, the ‘original’ is just a label, it only means they were born in the body. Just because you may be an alter, doesn’t mean you’re any less of a person. Everything you experience is just as real as it always has been. Your mum is still your mum, no one can take that away from you. All the relatives our here are still my relatives and I still love them because it doesn’t matter whether you were born or split, you still love, cry and feel like anyone else.

Never let anyone tell you you’re less valid or not as important. Obviously something happened to your core and you took over. That means you are a very strong person because you were there to live the life they couldn’t and I congratulate you on that.

You and I are very alike in that we’ve got to come to terms with the fact that we’re not who we thought we were, but you don’t have to change anything about yourself. Nothing has to change, your core doesn’t have to come and take over your life again. You can still operate as you’ve always done, still gain good levels of communication and even - if it’s your end goal - integrate. I don’t want to, but I know that if we ever did integrate, it would mean each alter merging with me, not the core.

Please remember, M, You’re just as real as you always were and nothing has to change.

To quote MewTwo: ‘the circumstances of one’s birth are irrelevant; it is what you do with the gift of life that determines who you are.’

*big hugs and here if you need me*

Scarlet xxxx

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we-hit-rock-bottom:

horsesfuckyeah:

smile4dahorses:

cookies-and-cobs:

lonely-jenga-player:

crikey-way:

myloveformcrwillneverdie:

pyromantix:

linglingslungs:

fsufeminist:

RuPaul’s Drag Race. ACCURATE.

Bait Car?

30 Rock.
SMH.
Yeah, you’re right.

Once Upon A Time!! does this mean I’m Emma Swan cause I’m cool with this

Orphan Black……. Please don’t

My 600lb life .-.

Yes! Friends :)

The Simpsons…..

American Horror Story: Coven

Supernatural…… Don’t know whether to be scared or overjoyed

The Great British Bake Off…. I have no idea how to take that…

we-hit-rock-bottom:

horsesfuckyeah:

smile4dahorses:

cookies-and-cobs:

lonely-jenga-player:

crikey-way:

myloveformcrwillneverdie:

pyromantix:

linglingslungs:

fsufeminist:

RuPaul’s Drag Race. ACCURATE.

Bait Car?

30 Rock.

SMH.

Yeah, you’re right.

Once Upon A Time!! does this mean I’m Emma Swan cause I’m cool with this

Orphan Black……. Please don’t

My 600lb life .-.

Yes! Friends :)

The Simpsons…..

American Horror Story: Coven

Supernatural…… Don’t know whether to be scared or overjoyed

The Great British Bake Off…. I have no idea how to take that…

(Source: haaaaaaaaaaytham)

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Calling out to the How To Train Your Dragon fandom!

stronger-thaniwas:

Alright, so, long story short: my godbrother is an animator for DreamWorks and has been working REALLY hard on these movies.
To show him how much everyone appreciates it, I wanted everyone in the fandom/everyone who loves the movies to like or reblog this! When the release date comes, I’m going to screen cap it and send it to him!
Sound good? Yes? Awesome! Now go, go, go! :D

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Thanks for bringing my confidence back when chatting on can you guys :D it really helped

Nuuu we missed you! :? Damn coursework making me have a tumblr hiatus. *pouts*

Happy Easter :D

Scarlet xxxx

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The winner will receive a cosplay costume of any Disney Character of their choice (cost- $100-$250)

 I really appreciate all the support i’ve gotten on this blog and want to thank all you amazing people by giving an amazing costume away! It’s perfect for anyone with a face character obsession (like myself!!!) If you are the winner, you get to select a character and i will provide you with all the options within the price range for that characters costume.

The costume will be purchased online by me from cosplay companies based out of China. If you are the winner, i will provide you with the sizing chart and you can let me know what size to order so it will fit you nicely!

I want to emphasize that I can not guarantee that the item you receive will look exactly like the item in the picture you select. I will obviously order the item with the picture you choose- but you never know what you will actually get…

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  8. your ask box must be open- if it is not, i will select a new winner.
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You can keep reblogging until i make a post on my blog announcing the winner

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fuckyeahdisneyfacecharacters:

FuckYeahDisneyFaceCharacters Cosplay Give Away!!!

The winner will receive a cosplay costume of any Disney Character of their choice (cost- $100-$250)

 I really appreciate all the support i’ve gotten on this blog and want to thank all you amazing people by giving an amazing costume away! It’s perfect for anyone with a face character obsession (like myself!!!) If you are the winner, you get to select a character and i will provide you with all the options within the price range for that characters costume.

The costume will be purchased online by me from cosplay companies based out of China. If you are the winner, i will provide you with the sizing chart and you can let me know what size to order so it will fit you nicely!

I want to emphasize that I can not guarantee that the item you receive will look exactly like the item in the picture you select. I will obviously order the item with the picture you choose- but you never know what you will actually get…

The rules

  1. Must be following me to be entered in the costume give away
  2. If you want, you can follow my main blog (it’s not predominantly Disney, but i do post Disney stuff a lot!). If you are following this blog, you will also win a wig for the character- details on giveaway page* ($20-$30)
  3. Reblogs count only (not likes!)
  4. Your name will be put in as many times as you reblog
  5. Giveaway Blogs do not count- be cool. I will definitely check
  6. You cannot delete the text
  7. I will be messaging you from my main blog, pawnee-parks-and-rec because tumblr still doesn’t let you select which blog you send messages from
  8. your ask box must be open- if it is not, i will select a new winner.
  9. You must respond within 24 hours- otherwise i will select a new winner

The winner will be selected randomly on Friday, May 23rd 2014 (in the evening) using an online random picker

You can keep reblogging until i make a post on my blog announcing the winner

If you have any questions about the give away, let me know!

I Ship anywhere worldwide!

Good luck!

I have a whole page about the give away with other costume examples and details on the wig here

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Anonymous asked: (unitedinsurvival) Thank you! I'll look into that rumour and see what I can dig up, as I'd like to make a post addressing the actual appropriation and romanticizing of mental illness in our popular culture. That post was just addressing arguments I have seen specifically about alter egos in music being harmful to those of us with DID. -Excess

Not a problem :) I just saw that post and it reminded me of the rumour I’d heard and I thought you’d like to know since that could be taken as actual harm to the DID and schizophrenia communities.

Emrys

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What you SHOULD say to people dealing with any of these (fixed because this annoyed me so much)

  • Anxiety: This too shall pass, even if that sounds corny and cliche. Your anxiety will subside, you are not dying, you will not die from this, everything is going to be fine. Keep taking deep breaths, try and stay focused.
  • What you should actually say: You don't have to face this alone, just sit down and breath, ok? Focus on the things around you, tell me the colour of it, ok? Just breath, talking will get you breathing.
  • Depression: You are valid and your emotions are valid. You are a good, strong person, even if you don't feel like you are right now. Things DO get better, and I know you can get through this.
  • What you should actually say: Hey, it's alright - you're not *insert whatever they said they feel like e.g. stupid, overreacting*. Want to go for a walk or play a game? It might help take you mind off things.
  • Sexual Orientation: Your body, your life, your bedroom. You choose what you do with it, and I get no say in the matter, because I am not you. I'll respect you no matter what.
  • What you should say: Coolness, need a wing man?
  • Bipolar: The sun also rises. For all your bad days, weeks, or longer-- you also have good ones just beyond the horizon. You know better than anyone what it means to finally hit those "highs" in your life, and I hope that you just keep growing and strengthening yourself through your treatment to extend those happy moments.
  • What you should actually say: *if low* Blanket Fort? *then see depression*. *If manic* Woah, there, let's go bowling or *insert activity here*.
  • Self harm: This is your body and I'll never pass judgement over you for the things you choose to do with it. However, you should really consider speaking with a counselor about this. Not because you're "bad", but because I just want you to be safe.
  • What You Should actually say: Let's get some antiseptic on it, yeah? Come on, we'll clean this up and go for a walk, yeah?
  • Eating disorders: It's okay to eat, you have permission. Eating will not make you fat, ugly, or worthless. Eating will make you strong, healthy, and lively. You deserve to eat, you deserve happiness.
  • What you should say: Well, you need food to live, basically - even if it's just a little bit. I'm eating this much, see? You don't have to eat as much, but it'd be great if you'd just have a mouthful or two.
  • Abuse: What they did was wrong, and you had no consenting part in it. You have no need to feel guilty or shamed, although I understand that may be exactly how you are feeling right now. They're the ones at fault here, and the ball is entirely in your court if you choose to report them for that, which you are rightfully entitled to do.
  • What you should say: You're not *insert how they said they felt*, you're still the same person you were before any of this happened, and if I ever see them I will personally punch them in the private parts. Or, you know, you could just distract them.
  • Suicide: Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. You are valuable and your existence is valuable. There are billions of people on this planet, and even if you think everyone hates you and no one cares, they do and they will. You can find so many friends and loved ones if you just allow yourself the time to look for them. The world turns out to be a beautiful place and you deserve to be alive to see that.
  • What you should say: Hey, come on now, talk it out. I'm here to listen. *keep them calm and remove all means, but don't give them flowery crap*
  • Sexual assault: What they did was vile and disgusting. Yes, you're now left with this horrible, traumatic event to move on from, but your life is not entirely lost. Recovery is possible, and an unfortunately large number of people have to go through that-- but they make it to the other side. So can you, you can do this. You're not dirty, you're not a "slut" or a "whore", you are a human being whose rights were violated. But you are strong, and I know you can move past this in due time.
  • What you should say: What a dick, it's not your fault - never think it's your fault. You didn't say yes.
  • Multiple Personality Disorder: I'll always love you no matter who you are. I only hope the absolute best for you during your recovery and treatment, and maybe one day I'll be so privileged as to love you as one whole.
  • (Dissociative Identity Disorder btw) What you should say: (Just NONE OF THE ABOVE YOU OFFENSIVE PIECE OF CRAP.) Oh, ok, tell everyone they can let me know when they're out and I'll use their names and stuff. *ask name, gender and age when meeting a new alter/headmate - never treat as one single person*
  • Post Traumatic Stress Disorder: The pain of suddenly reliving horrific events is almost unimaginable for me. Please try and remember that although it feels like it's real and it's happening right now, that it's not. You are okay, you are fine, and you are safe. You are in the present here and now, and that past can't manifest itself again to come and physically hurt you. Everything is just fine, these feelings will pass and you're going to be okay.
  • What you should say: It's ok, I'm here, focus on my voice. *describe surroundings and get them to help, use all the sense and pull them back to the present* NEVER TOUCH THEM UNLESS THEY SAY IT'S OK.
  • Schizophrenia: I am real and I can promise you that. I care. Try and find something grounding for you, an object that you can cling to to help you distinguish between whether or not you're hallucinating. You are not a freak, you are not a monster. You're a human being with rights and emotions who happens to be ill right now.
  • What you should say: *I'm just guessing you're a close freind and not a random dude* Hey, you know I don't hallucinate, ok? So, I'm going to say what I can see and I want you tell me if it matches up. We'll work this out. But, for a start, focus on my voice and mouth, not them.
  • I saw the what "not" to say post and had to make my own variant of that. I lava you <3
  • I am offended by that MPD post. NEVER SAY THAT TO U OR I WILL KILL YOU.
  • Anyway, I used my own experience as an alter in a DID system with A LOT of co-morbid disorders to try and fix this, I used personal experiences and these all work for us. It might not be the same for everyone, but it's a hell of a lot better than this piece of garbage. - Emrys

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